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My Best Love Quotes #NewPost [19]
To my boyfriend, and what I will do when we eventually break up
To my boyfriend
When we eventually break up, it will not be mutual
There will be no good parting of ways
There will be no happy smiles
There will be no remaining friendship here
I will immediately become cold, almost cruel to you
I will start to shut down
But this will not be the last
Becauaw when I finally down that half bottle of vodka I’d been saving for our anniversary,
You will get a rambling broken drunken text
If you love me,or even see me as human
Do not respond
Ignore my silent drunken plea for attention,
because I will feel the shame in the morning light if we talk or not
My apologies in advanced
When I hear you are dating a new girl,
I will pick up my blade once again
Only to put it down when my shaky hands fail to carve your name into my skin
I will compare her and I in ever possible aspect,
Before finally deciding she is much better than me
I will give her the victory
Since as the final judge, you already have
I will lock myself inside so deep that I wonder if they would ever cut through the masks I put in place
I would shield myself in such a manor it would terrify you
And me
I would worry about the monster I had become
But little by little I would heal myself
And when you break up with me
I will ask you to never come back
Despite my pleas later to the contrary
Despite all of the chaos
Despite how much you miss me
Do not come back
Because I was fine without before
And I will be again
when people give me compliments I feel like a vending machine trying to accept a wrinkly dollar and it’s just really frustrating for everyone involved
I’ve never related to anything more in my life